I am so sick and fat and BLAH!!! Hating life right UGH!!!!! want to eat soup or fruit but I won't already eat like 20 blueberries and there is no way in hell I could even lift a finger to burn any cals off! Ugh! I feel like shit! And my boyfriend is so far away right now! Happy fucking Valentines day huh ladies?

So sorry to do this to my 28 day planners but I am so not starting today! Everything is fucked! My grandpa just died and my boyfriend is so broke and hating life that he's probably going back to Iraq! For like the 4th time! He just got out of the army and now is probably gonna do contracting overseas on and off for the next year so my goals have been put off for now all I wanna do is eat and sulk and not move! I am so worthless but I don't care right now will be fat as hell when I return so I'm really gonna need you guys' help! Thanks for everyhting please don't judge. 

Today is my first day so I will tell you how it went at the end of the day. I'm new here but very excited! This is exactly what I need and thank you all so much! I am just going to be drinking water no solids at all! Or juice for that matter. I will keep you updated on how I do! Thank you all again! Wish me luck!